Fulfilling my fantasies

So for some time now despite not being particularly active with BDSM I have been having more and more extreme fantasies that never get fulfilled. 

I have made several attempts to carry them out but have found it difficult to locate people who are willing to go as far as I want, are sane and sensible and can work around my ridiculous schedule. I don’t blame anyone, I am very difficult and if I’m honest sometimes flaky which is why I’ve not had a proper relationship since Kayleigh. 

One person who has been a constant in my life is the friend who I spent new year with, which I half wrote about on this blog at the time. There is no romantic interest between us despite him being the man who has fucked me the most times by a long way! We get on and have a similar level of depravity buried inside us. 

So I we were talking about all these fantasies I have that are fairly crazy and he said he would help me fulfill them if I met his conditions, which were:

• He can be involved in the sessions if it doesn’t ruin the fantasy fulfilment. 
• He can take photos and video of the sessions for his own private collection that will belong to him. 
• Once I decide I no longer need to anonymity in the BDSM side of my life he can share the material freely. 
• Within six months he can use me to fulfill one of his own fantasies with no limits and I cannot refuse. 

I spent quite a while thinking about his demands, the first one I was fine with and I was willing to go with the second because I trust him. The third I was worried about, at some point once I’ve reached a certain point in my career I do intend to stop hiding this side of myself but I’m not sure if I want that moment to be accompanied by a flood of images and video of me spilling online. 

I discussed this with him and he assured me that it wouldn’t happen like that, he would be subtle and probably a little more profiteering than that, possibly setting up a pay site using his material of me, which is both scary and exciting if I’m honest. 

The four demand was just as scary and exciting! However I did force a couple of caveats on him, he is not allowed to permanently change my outward appearance and is not allowed to land me in jail or hospital. He agreed to that. 

All of which means that this new arrangement is agreed and he is underway planning one of my fantasies. I won’t know which one is going to happen, he will just let me know to make some time available and then it will happen. 

I’ve given him a detailed list of the fantasies but have also put a more succinct version on my blog. As I carry out the fantasies I will write about them on here (I promise!) and then link to the post from the fantasy page. 

I hope you like this idea and will enjoy reading about them. If you have any suggestions for things to happen during the fantasies feel free to comment on the fantasy page, my friend does read my blog he just chooses not to post on it (a source of annoyance to me!) so your suggestions may end up being included!

You can see the fantasy page here.